Fucking fuckity fuck's sake D<<<

"Oh look, I'm Darian, and I'm clingy just because I want to hang out with my boyfriend at lunchtime when practically the only goddamned place I see him is at schoool~ Ohhh, it's such a fucking criiime to want to be around the person you looove."

MY FUCKING ASS D<<<<

LIKE, GAWD!

;~;

Okie, I'm done now, that is all.

;~;

Blehhhh, I superduper HATEHATEHATE snow. D;<
Like, SERIOUSLY. It's really gross and yucky and cold.
;~;
Yes, in fact I AM complaining about the fact that I live in a continent that gives me snow every goddamned winter. It isn't MY choice to live here. It is up to my parents, as a matter of fact, until I turn eighteen. Then, hopefully I will be going somewhere like, Cuba or something every year during wintertime. Yeah, that's it.
It's called timeshare. :D

Anyway. My school's semiformal is tomorrow. Exciting, eh? I have a dress and the works all ready for it.
And a date.
Whom I am trying to convince that he NEEDS to match me. I have a dress with gold on it, and I think it would be lovely if he wore either a gold tie or a gold shirt. I mean, matching couples are cute, no?
<.<
I think so, anyway.
=_=
I am not a loser.
I am NOT lame.
<.<
I think..............

THIS COCAINE MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I'M ON THIS SONG~~

Okay, so here's another update. In less than a week. Aren't you excited?! I am excited, is all I know.
Of course, I could also be affected by the energy drink that I had. It was fruit punch flavoured, and honestly, my brain is buzzing. I am seeing things, I think. But other than that, it's great~~ My fingers are all tapping on the keyboard really quickly and I think I can type superspeed. But in all honesty, I am not really all that quick at typing. I mean, I have seen so many people type faster than me. I dono. I guess I'm just an average typer.
SUPERSPEED DANCE DOWN!
Wow, that didn't make sense at all.
Aaaaanywhooooo~~~
Muffins are good, eh?
Wheeee~!
Chocolate chiiip, and and blueberryyyy and OH MY GOD CRANBERRY.
No wait.
CRANBERRY CHOCOLATE CHIP MUFFINS~~~ AAAAAAAAAAAMFG~~~!!!!!!

Okay.
So that's it for my random crazy bout.
I think. Just sit tight and see.

So, this weekend, I went shopping, for a pair of gold shoes, and there were gold shoes EVERYWHERE, but I would have killed myself in most of them, or they were just plain fucking ugly, or they were the wrong gold. So I go to this one store, and the moment I walked in, I saw them. The perfect gold shoes, that would have looked amazing with my dress for semiformal. I picked them up, and they felt nice and cheap, and I turned them over to reveal...
A FUCKING PRICE OF $89.68 CANADIAN. I was all like, FUUUUUUUUU~~~~ HOW CAN A PAIR OF FUCKING CHEAP THREADED NOT REALLY GOLD FUCKING FLATS BE $89.68?!?!?!??!!?! TELL ME THIS CORPORATE AMERICA AND YOUR "MADE IN CHINA" LOGOS AND YOUR FUCKING HIGH PRICES SO YOU HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY FOR CHILD LABOUR! YOU GODDAMNED CHILD LAOURISTS AND YOUR BABY SANDWICHES. YOU SURE LOVE TO MAKE THOSE KIDS WORK, MAKE THINGS BY HAND, AND RISK THEIR LIVES WITH DANGEROUS MACHINES, JUST SO YOU CAN PAY THEM ONE FUCKING DOLLAR A DAY AND THEN MAKE THE OTHER EIGHTY-EIGHT DOLLARS AND SIXTY-EIGHT FUCKING CENTS. HONESTLY, WTF. SRSLY, YOU GUYS. YOU GUYS, SRSLY. GET SOME LIVES THAT DON'T INVOLVE CRIME. OR BATMAN'S GONNA GET YOU, BITCH.

-Coughcough.- Yeah, I think I just lost my dignity.
WAIT, I NEVER HAD ONE! Because, anyone who is awesome enough to write a blog on this website, has already given up their dignity, exposing their opinions to the world!!!

Kay, yeah, I am done. Caffeine high is going down.

Love,

Darian.

Alright, alright. So I am finally, after a looong time, updating. Got a problem with that? Too bad.
Pretty much, today is boring and lame and rainy, But it's Friday! I sure do love Fridays.

What has been going on with me lately, you ask? Well, a lot of things. A lot of things that I do not really care to talk about. But I will anyway, just to satisfy your curiosity.

Pretty much, it's been school, school, school, friends, friends, friends, bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. As per usual, of course. School, is lame, because I am almost failing two frigging courses. And I have no idea why -.- Which is the worst thing ever. Fersrs.
Then, friends. I love all those people. They are fantabulous in all kinds of ways, and I don't believe that will ever change. Really. My friends pretty much make life better, and support me when I am having a shit time. Even when they are in bad moods and have tendencies to spaz out on me during those times. <.<
Then, the bullshit. It's called drama. I really HATE drama. I think it should die, and go away forever. Only because, it makes me feel like a terrible person, and I do not enjoy feeling like a terrible person. So, in extension to that, I feel like shit, and get angry and upset and start to want to hit things. Although, hitting a wall every now and then never hurt anyone TOO badly. I say, cast away the bullshit, and bring in some goddamned RED BULL! D;< ~ It gives you wings.~ Lmao. ANYWAYYYS. Drama = epic fail.

Now, to the ever so popular topic, of nOObs. To be completely honest, I don't believe that I was ever a nOOb. Only because, I didn't go around being an illiterate idiot arguing with the trolls. I WAS the troll. I AM the troll. Even though it is said, that everyone has a point in life when they are a nOOb, I honestly, never have been, and more than likely never will be. ONLY BECAUSE I am not a retard that goes around trying to make friends on random threads. Threads are for posting random shit, people, and roleplaying. Nobody really cares that you cut yourself and want to die. Honestly, if you want to die so badly that you would post it in a thread, just go do it already, because you are quite obviously a poser looking for attention. Therefore, you are a nOOb. Also, don't accuse someone of cybering just because they post roleplaying starters in a thread. That is not cybering, my little nOOby friends. That, is called advertising. If you don't know the definition of that, you are quite obviously an idiot, and need to be put under special attention. As in, you are special needs. CYBERING, is a slang for cyber sex. In other words, roleplaying sex, webcam sex. Yeah, and also, just for your information, that kind of thing, is illegal. ESPECIALLY on a 13+ website. I am referring to GaiaOnline, if you have not clued in already. If you are on there, and do not have me as a friend, message i b i r t h d a y s e x and I shall add you as a friend. You can also find me in the Girls Trapped in a Forest.... etc thread, most evenings.

Thanks for reading.

Love, Darian.

So, it seems that I didn't update yesterday. Sorry everyone. It seems my laptop cord has broken. (D<)

So, until I have a new one bought, I will probably not be online as often, meaning I may not update every day. Though, I will probably try to find some way to update.

Alright, now to Runescape talk.

I didn't get on the other day, therefor my bloody avatar is still remaining at level 18, as it will until I find time in my hectic cleaning schedule (blahblahblah, yeah I offered because I am just that much of a goody two-shoes). However, I will have a chance for possibly 2 hours, so maybe I cna even get to level 25. Hopefully. Then I am closer to beating that goddamned Delrith and his shitty-level-forty-something-mage-followers-that-need-to-wipe-their-bums. Blaaagh.

Anyway!

o3o

I DO have good news about one thing. I got to talk to a certain person that I had been waiting to talk to for like, four days. That's right. FOUR.

D<

And the saddest part is, I won't get to see him for a couple weeks, because I do not have a bloody power cord for my laptop, therefore no webcam, and I am effing well volounteering at a church camp. This all means that I am not free until the week before school starts. LAMEST THING EVER. Why do I have to be so nice and volounteer my time, you ask? Because I am too bloody nice.

D<

Thank god I will not have too hectic a schedule (besides school work) during the school year. I believe my brain would implode from the lack of socializing if my life was like that all the time.

Oh, wait.

IT IS.

D<<

Not too busy a schedule during school, no, however, it is still going to be busy. What with fundraisers, gaining volounteer hours, school work, friend time, family time, and soccer, I have like, no relaxation time until after my soccer team goes to Sweden.

<.<;;

Ohwell.

I SUPPOSE I will have to deal with it.

And I am rant whining.

Shit.

D<

Alright, I suppose I should go finish cleaning, so that is all for the quick update.

Love,

Darian

Calling all cars we've got another victim, 'cause my love has become an affliciton

Alright, so this is my second post, and I have decided that I am going to update every day, no matter how short nor long the post is.

Today, I am pretty much just lazing around the house, off in dreamland. There isn't much to do, really, other than clean. (Blech) But, I guess I will have to get to it eventually, because I won't be able to make any money if my room isn't clean before I go to my mother's.... (Yes, my parents are split.) That, and I need the money, to put time on my cell phone...

So I guess I will get to the cleaning after this update.

Blahblahblahhhhhh DX

The lamest part of this is, certain people that I would like to speak to aren't online/ haven't been online for like, 3 days. (If it hasn't been 3, then it definitely seems like it. -,-;;) I would call them, (specifically him) but I have this really bad fear of phones, so I wouldn't talk to anyone unless they called me. This is a problem, because nobody has my father's number other than my friends in the area. And my mother. <.<;;

I am truly bored, though. Nobody could have any idea what level. Like, waaaay over 9000.

Jeez, I wish my RS character was Combat Level over 9000. That would be greaaat. Honestly, I am stuck at level 18, because I keep getting killed by the goddamned mages surrounding Delrith in the "Demon Slayer" quest for non-members. Honestly, I wish I had a membership... That would be waaaaaay better. No worries, though, because I am purchasing a membership as soon as I hit level 20. That will probably only take me about say.... twenty minutes. Let's hope, anyway.

DX

I will be back tomorrow with updates on my RS levels, and hopefully with news about a certain boy.

<.<

Bye for noww;

Love, Darian

The world is a vampire...

Blog, blog, blog. What is a blog? A blog is a place to write your thoughts, feelings, and ideas. At least, that is my opinion on the matter.

So, this is my first post. If you are reading this, you more than likely don't know me at all. After all, this is the internet. However, you will soon get to know me bit by bit. At least, you will get to know my opinions. Before you go thinking that I will be giving personal information about myself, get it through your head that I do not release any of that, and any names of the people in my life will be changed for the safety of others. Sorry if it's inconvenient, guys.

According to some people, I am very opinionated. This is probably the the most true statement anyone has ever made about me.

Now that introductions are over with, please stick with me as I explain a little about myself.

My first name is Darian. I am fifteen, going into the tenth grade, yet another year of school. I can't really say that I dislike school at all, because I honestly love it. Only thing is, sitting around kills me.

Anyway.

I consider myself to be somewhat of an artist. I love drawing, writing, making music, modeling, photography. You name it, I have probably done it, when it comes to art. I may post some drawings and photography I have done later on, though I am not sure.

I definitely have the best friends in the world. They are the most beautiful, random, fun-loving, and caring people I know. I am not even boasting. I just love them so much.

I can't really say that I am close with my family, mind you, what teenager is? I love them and all, but I don't necessarily want to be around them all the time. I much prefer being in solitude, away from everything else, with my paper and pencil.

As for religious views, I don't really have any. Sorry to disappoint.

And yes, I do have a boyfriend. So if you are one of those creepy people that go on peoples' blogs to find a good girlfriend, you are out of luck.

I think that is enough about me. You probably want an opinion piece more than anything. I am going to start out with a piece that I posted on my DeviantArt page, about narcissism. Please, also check out my DA page: http://charismaticnarcisist.deviantart.com/

Hello, everyone, I am Darian, and I am a narcissist.

I don't see why people have a problem with my being vain, either, because it is them that cause me to be. When you are constantly told that you look beautiful, or your looks are positively complimented, you eventually begin to look in the mirror, inspecting the aspects people say they love, and end up agreeing with them. Such as me- it's my eyes. Most of the time, all I ever hear is "You have such pretty eyes!" This is both with makeup, and without it. And so I ended up investigating into this apparent beauty in my eyes, and instantly fell in love.

My self-obsession couldn't be a bad thing, either, because it gives me a better idea as to when I look absolutely awful. I have a certain image in my head as to what my face should generally look like- and so whenever there is a pimple, or a stray eyebrow, I certainly notice it, and do what I can about fixing it. And I get compliments on my looks because I take care of myself- certainly that isn't bad... Is it?

Most people say that narcissism is wrong, because they are so hung up on loving others, or are jealous of celebrities' looks, and so they have it in their minds that you shouldn't love yourself, but others. I, personally, disagree with that, because if you don't love yourself, then you don't really have a right to love others. You need to learn to be happy with yourself before you can me genuinely happy with someone else. There isn't such a thing as loving yourself too much. If you really stop to think about it, loving yourself is a lot easier than loving someone else, because at least you do not have to suffer the hearbreak.

I cannot say that I am a complete narcissist, because I give too much of my heart out to others, but at the same time, I remain completely self-absorbed. I am somewhat borderline, even if I may occaisonally go over the top with loving myself. For my friends with agree with that: I love you guys too! Just my love toward you is completely different than the way I feel toward myself. The way I think of myself is someone that cares too much about how she looks, because in truth, even a narcissist has self-esteem issues and self-consciousness. We just don't show it the way everyone else does. We express it by going over the top with loving ourselves.

For those of you that know me well, yes, I can be very selfish sometimes. I take and take from you, and don't show much appreciation, I know, but in little ways, trust me, I do. And if I don't, it is coming, because I value what other people do for me, and always find a way to make it up to them, whether that involves multiple little tasks or comments or advice, or something very big.

In truth, we narcissists are just like everyone else, only they know how to love themselves more than others, and have a bigger self-esteems. We aren't bad people, we just aren't perfect.