Blog, blog, blog. What is a blog? A blog is a place to write your thoughts, feelings, and ideas. At least, that is my opinion on the matter.
So, this is my first post. If you are reading this, you more than likely don't know me at all. After all, this is the internet. However, you will soon get to know me bit by bit. At least, you will get to know my opinions. Before you go thinking that I will be giving personal information about myself, get it through your head that I do not release any of that, and any names of the people in my life will be changed for the safety of others. Sorry if it's inconvenient, guys.
According to some people, I am very opinionated. This is probably the the most true statement anyone has ever made about me.
Now that introductions are over with, please stick with me as I explain a little about myself.
My first name is Darian. I am fifteen, going into the tenth grade, yet another year of school. I can't really say that I dislike school at all, because I honestly love it. Only thing is, sitting around kills me.
Anyway.
I consider myself to be somewhat of an artist. I love drawing, writing, making music, modeling, photography. You name it, I have probably done it, when it comes to art. I may post some drawings and photography I have done later on, though I am not sure.
I definitely have the best friends in the world. They are the most beautiful, random, fun-loving, and caring people I know. I am not even boasting. I just love them so much.
I can't really say that I am close with my family, mind you, what teenager is? I love them and all, but I don't necessarily want to be around them all the time. I much prefer being in solitude, away from everything else, with my paper and pencil.
As for religious views, I don't really have any. Sorry to disappoint.
And yes, I do have a boyfriend. So if you are one of those creepy people that go on peoples' blogs to find a good girlfriend, you are out of luck.
I think that is enough about me. You probably want an opinion piece more than anything. I am going to start out with a piece that I posted on my DeviantArt page, about narcissism. Please, also check out my DA page: http://charismaticnarcisist.deviantart.com/
Hello, everyone, I am Darian, and I am a narcissist.
I don't see why people have a problem with my being vain, either, because it is them that cause me to be. When you are constantly told that you look beautiful, or your looks are positively complimented, you eventually begin to look in the mirror, inspecting the aspects people say they love, and end up agreeing with them. Such as me- it's my eyes. Most of the time, all I ever hear is "You have such pretty eyes!" This is both with makeup, and without it. And so I ended up investigating into this apparent beauty in my eyes, and instantly fell in love.
My self-obsession couldn't be a bad thing, either, because it gives me a better idea as to when I look absolutely awful. I have a certain image in my head as to what my face should generally look like- and so whenever there is a pimple, or a stray eyebrow, I certainly notice it, and do what I can about fixing it. And I get compliments on my looks because I take care of myself- certainly that isn't bad... Is it?
Most people say that narcissism is wrong, because they are so hung up on loving others, or are jealous of celebrities' looks, and so they have it in their minds that you shouldn't love yourself, but others. I, personally, disagree with that, because if you don't love yourself, then you don't really have a right to love others. You need to learn to be happy with yourself before you can me genuinely happy with someone else. There isn't such a thing as loving yourself too much. If you really stop to think about it, loving yourself is a lot easier than loving someone else, because at least you do not have to suffer the hearbreak.
I cannot say that I am a complete narcissist, because I give too much of my heart out to others, but at the same time, I remain completely self-absorbed. I am somewhat borderline, even if I may occaisonally go over the top with loving myself. For my friends with agree with that: I love you guys too! Just my love toward you is completely different than the way I feel toward myself. The way I think of myself is someone that cares too much about how she looks, because in truth, even a narcissist has self-esteem issues and self-consciousness. We just don't show it the way everyone else does. We express it by going over the top with loving ourselves.
For those of you that know me well, yes, I can be very selfish sometimes. I take and take from you, and don't show much appreciation, I know, but in little ways, trust me, I do. And if I don't, it is coming, because I value what other people do for me, and always find a way to make it up to them, whether that involves multiple little tasks or comments or advice, or something very big.
In truth, we narcissists are just like everyone else, only they know how to love themselves more than others, and have a bigger self-esteems. We aren't bad people, we just aren't perfect.
